Chaos To The Rescue
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Iâ€™m leaving in two days!
Yaaayâ€¦ I canâ€™t believe itâ€™s really happening! Wait a minuteâ€¦ Shit. Iâ€˜m so not ready. Why am I doing this, again?
I want to meet all my friends. And I want to be left alone. I want my mommy. And I want my freedom. I want to see the world. And I want to curl up in my bed and stay there.
Warning: Iâ€™m about to throw a Super-Sulk!
No body told me how miserable the last few days were going to be. They really are. Maybe they donâ€™t tell you because you might chicken out. Maybe â€˜theyâ€™ didnâ€™t feel like I do. And I feel scared and elated, focused and chaotic, convinced and conflicted. What the hell is going on?
Itâ€™s probably a good thing that I have a million lose ends to tie up. Iâ€™m struggling to pull everything together. I donâ€™t have my international phone sim-card, though Iâ€˜m expecting it anytime. My ForexPlus travel card hasnâ€™t been activated yet. My equipment is a few pieces short and Iâ€™m still one Visa away from the full suite!
And for some reason, I thought switching to a Mac, a few days before I leave was a good idea. Oh, did I mention, and Iâ€™m completely Mac illiterate?
But, I did say Iâ€™d be living adventurously this year. Serves me right!
Fortunately, the chaos keeps me distracted most of the day.
But, itâ€™s the quieter moments that until now Iâ€™d given no thought to, that really get the better of me. Like catching a glimpse of my parents sitting together, talking about me; excited and afraid at the same time. Or the bursts of unconditional love and drool from my Dog. Heâ€™s pretty old and Iâ€™m painfully aware of his frailty. The transcontinental Skype sessions with my sister and the realization that itâ€™s her meticulous instructions, that have helped me more than any guide book or travel blog.
If I had all my paperwork in place and nothing left to freak out about, this is about the time Iâ€™d be having a meltdown.
I knew there was an upside to being a disorganized procrastinator. Ha!
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