Day 3: Monday, May 28, 2007

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Hugging yet another tree :)

5:10am

 

Yeah, sleep is a funny thing here. My alarm isn’t supposed to go off until 6am, but here I am, up at 5 and have no desire to go back to bed.

Honestly, I’m glad I’m going home tonight. I’ve been a little anxious about Smoky (my cat) for some odd reason – I don’t normally worry about her when we go away.

 

And although I’m glad to be going home to make sure Smoky is okay, this day still has some melancholy attached to its very existence. The end of the trip (which isn’t until late tonight) marks the return to routine living, to school, and “normal life” stuff. It reminds me that I will have lots of catching up to do in classes I don’t particularly like.

It also marks the return to old thoughts I don’t particularly like either.

Somehow this trip caused my thinking to change for a while. I didn’t hate myself quite as much, and I let myself be myself for a few days (maybe because I knew it would only be for a few days). I let myself go nuts taking pictures and I totally didn’t censor myself at all, not worrying about computer space or whether the picture is relevant. It’s interesting that when we’re on a trip it’s almost as though I let go of some layers of my personality for a while, uncovering my True nature more than I usually do.

 

7:30am

Having this trip coincide with reading Eat, Pray, Love has been monumentally important. I don’t know what part of the personality is in control right now as I write this, and maybe once I pick up my old routine I won’t feel so strongly, but right now I want to change lots of things about my everyday life.

I want to do yoga, meditate, rollerblade, … eat, pray, and love. I want to make my spirituality an expression, and an action, rather than just a relentless internal tornado. On this trip I brought my prettiest, most flattering blouses. I did my hair and makeup in a way I enjoy every day, and I worried very little about my weight or looks. I enjoyed myself…

Maybe the reason I’m dreading the return to “normal life” is because I’ll make it awful for myself again. But why? Why do I do that?

 

10:50pm

We’re home, although the trip is still lingering in my energies. It still feels like we’re on vacation a little bit. We saw an endless array of beauty today – and it will all be much better described with the photos I took today.

An awesome coincidence occurred today – through several pieces of the puzzle I realized that my bus neighbor is the mother of a girl I know. The girl (Diana) was the captain of the Russian comedy club team I was on, back in 2001. The woman and her husband took a picture of me so they can show Diana and send her my “hello”. I take this to be a good sign, even if this chance meeting doesn’t really amount to anything but a fun coincidence.

 

As usual, this trip was yet another spiritual experience for me. The mountains reminded me that there is always unconditional love in my life, whether I see it or not. The flowers and the endless array of plants reminded me that there is always incredible beauty in my life, whether I see it or not. And the book reminded me that I can and will eventually see both…

 

...By the way, Smoky was fine. :)

AndiPerullo says:
LOVED the blog darling! I'm glad that it turned out to be such an influential trip for you. Your words and pictures are beautiful. You need to hurry up and go on another trip, so that I can read a new blog. :)
Posted on: Jun 01, 2007
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