First I'll start with my Au Pair-ing for the week. This week has started to feel a little more normal and I've started to get semi comfortable with what I'm doing. I went to the mall with Tanja (host mother) and the two kids on Wednesday. That was an adventure to say the least. I have a newfound respect for any mom who goes shopping with here kids. Every time Tanja tried to try on clothes or do anything for herself Soeren either ran away or screamed bloody murder. I felt horrible for her, because if that was me I would just stop taking the kids shopping, or stop shopping altogether. And it wasn't just Soeren, either. There were kids doing similar things all over the mall it seemed. I just felt bad for the poor parents who had to be like "shhhh mommy just wants a new pair of pants!" When I was little I used to run away and hide in the clothes racks, and one day to teach me a lesson my mom pretended to leave me.
View of Potsdamer Platz from afar
That kind of backfired because I just kept hiding until I lost her. I had to wait with some nice old ladies for like twenty minutes until she found me again. I used to make fun of her for losing me, but I think I would have done the same thing.. or just left me at home.
Thursday night I had to put both kids to bed while Tanja and Jorn went out. I may be more comfortable with my job, however having both children at night by myself is still my biggest fear. One kid I can deal with, but two at night is a totally different story. That night Finja just would not stop crying, so I had to hold her while trying to explain to Soeren, in German, that he can't watch another episode of television, he in fact has to wash up for bed. This resulted in him trying to convince me that his parents said it was alright to do (which it definitely wasn't, I'd asked).
Memorial for the Jewish lives lost in the Holocaust
It was a fight getting him to the bathroom, then to get him to brush his teeth, and all the while I'm holding Finja being like "shhhhh please just for like five minutes stop crying so I can deal with one kid at a time." Once he was finally in his pajamas and ready for bed I tried to read him a book, but I could only use one had because the other one was holding the screaming baby. So I'm trying to read the book in German and can barely see the words so I'm like "uhhh da.... war... ein.... grosse...uh." After that I had to say good night to Soeren extremely quickly and attempt to stop Finja from screaming in my ear. I walked around with her for the next few hours saying things to her like "if you stop crying I'll give you a million dollars." She clearly was uninterested in my money because she kept crying if I tried to put her down for a second.
I almost got her to sleep when my cell phone started ringing and woke her up. Fabulous. It took me another half hour to get her back to sleep. By the time Tanja and Jorn got home I was absolutely exhausted. This may sound like an extremely horrible night, however I am claiming it as a success for two reasons. First, I got through the whole night without Soeren telling me to go away or something along that line. Second, he told me I wouldn't be his best friend anymore if I didn't let him play with his toys. Which may sound to other people like not that great, however I'm taking that to mean on some level that he actually likes me. Success!
Yesterday I got back into the city and took a free tour with another au pair. I got to see a bunch of the city that I hadn't before and got a lot of great history on everything.
I forget what this building is.. I think it's French, haha
It felt a little silly taking a tour since I live around the city, but it's good to know someone about where I'm living, because just wandering around is a little more difficult in a city as spread out as Berlin. It was a great tour, but super long; four and a half hours. By the time it was done I was late for the voice lesson I had scheduled and had to run to the S-bahn. But I eventually made it, just 15 minutes late (woops). It was great to finally have a lesson with someone, and I think I'll go back for another as soon as I can. I guess that's all for right now, I'll update again soon. Bis spaeter!