i feel trapped like a bee inside a jar.

at last the announcement came from air france, that boarding is now open. wow, that was like 1.30 hours of waiting! i lined in, and i never felt so alone and frail in my life, usually i like traveling alone, but now, i just needed someone to talk to. well, besides listening unavoidably to chinese people yapping and yakking that i couldnt hear the announcement. so i fall in line at the boarding gate. there were 2 chinese girls who were so jumpy, excited? no. and flashy movements that one of them stepped on my foot, i was about to kill her but i was distracted as i saw something -  SMOKING AREA. after almost 2 hours sitting there, i thought smoking was forbidden inside charles de gaulle. well the smoking lounge was well hidden, if it werent for that chinese character, i wouldnt have spotted it. *rolls eyes*.

it must be a big aircraft, as i smoked 2x already but the line was still there and growing. i was one of the last passengers to load, i was seated at the very back of the air craft, good - near the toilets and in the aisle. its been such a while since i boarded a huge aircraft, i flipped though the magazines and fiddled with the tv screen.

before take off, the pilot said that we are FLYING OVER north - sweden, finland, siberia, mongolia and finally to china - WHAT?! that would take forever! i dont know what was my greatest sin (well i can write them all but it would take a whole page) that i had to suffer this calvary of calvaries in my shoulder.

as i settled, it was strange as flight attendants came and sprayed something in the air, they were stiff but with smiling faces, sleek and robotic. weird, reminds me of men and in black. i wouldnt be surprised if aliens would pop out underneath our seats.

after spraying, the flight attendants, well in our lane, was a lady with a swashbuckling attitude came over and handed us some small round biscuits, i dont know what was that for, but i ate it of course. i had to laugh because theyre like moving mannequins with a perpetual smile on their faces, it was surreal. i swear if i got taller, i wouldnt be a flight attendant, i'd rather go fishing, hmmm but i dont eat fish.

i dont know what they sprayed but i fell into sleep.

soon, the tv was working, and i was so excited! as usual, i looked in the kids section and watched kung fu panda. i was in the middle of watching the movie, that i got annoyed because a chinese guy seated next to me, WAS PEERING ON MY TV. but apprently he wanted to ask me a question, because he doenst know how to use the headphones. so i took the liberty of showing him how it works but he couldnt get it, so put it in his ear, i swear i squeezed his cold ear.

then came our lunch, the flight attendant with a swashbuckling attitude gave me my food, chicken with risotto rice and some other side things. which was, i wont argue, the bestest food i had in 3 days of almost traveling in air. desert was also good! you can never really go wrong with french cuisine. even if youre eating roasted pig's blood it would taste creme bruleè.

after watching kung fu panda, i felt more alone, as i imagined myself being the panda, (only me being 1000 times thinner) the flight attendant with a swashbuckling attitude took my leftovers. so what to do? i took a look at the flight navigator, we were just entering russia, still a long way to go. i put on music, it was amazing, french music with a gypsy influence is really really really amazing, like listening to a bunch of crickets chirping together.

nothing much to do, so many chinese characters are standing and wandering noisily around the aircraft, i looked at my seatmate, he was enjoying his film, laughing, frowning, laughing withouth blinking his eyes.

i slept.

when i woked, i fiddled again with the tv screen and decided to watch narnia: prince caspian, 10 minutes, i was already falling asleep, it was so boring, like watching a lifecycle of a mosquito in a tv screen, i switched and flipped through the channels, i settled for the mummy set in china, again in the middle of the movie the flight attendant with a swashbuckling attitude came and served our dinner. i forgot what it was, but as usual, lovely food. i finshed watching the movie, that was a total crap, seriously, at least i watched it free, or i will never forgive myself if i watched and payed it in the cinema in düsseldorf which costs ten euros.

i admit and accept that more or less in 20 hours, this will be my routine, i asked myself, why is is that when i am not in a hurry to go into a destination, things went smoothly and in on time? but now, i am such in a hurry, but somethings pulling me to be lagged behind? drama drama drama, accepting defeat, i smiled  at the flight attendant with a swashbuckling attitude and slept.