Ramblings as I sit up in Bed
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10:43pm on 3-22 and if Scott asks me what time it is one more time, welllll!!!! Really, weāre getting on together just swell but somebody please buy this boy a watch and a travel clock and a wall clock and a phone with a clock and whatever other time pieces you can get your hands on please. : )
We over ate a bit at dinnerā¦.well, I overate on some sweets that were served. We then went for another nighttime walk guided by Marioā¦.interesting and always feels a little precarious as itās so dark and the walkways are so uneven and today we crossed the busy highway too, anyway, it is really nice to get that type of peak at the area.
This time of night always feels a bit wearyā¦.like, weāve had very long days and we eat late and then we have to wait to do this 11pm meditation when weād really like to just go to sleep. Scottās been trying to nap for the last hour.
Iāve seen myself in the mirror more lately at this new guest house than I have for weeksā¦I have lost some weight but lately this olā body seems to have caught up with that in a good way, Iām feeling more fit in a way that I donāt think I could have accomplished very easily back home, even with working out etc. It feels like itās the meditation work above all else but certainly the food intake and daily walking and stairs etc. even though itās not that much exercise to have warranted such a bodily change that I see and feel. Very interesting as is so much of this experience. Sure would be nice to keep that momentum going when I get home.
We havenāt nailed down our last dayās travel plans yet but I sure hope that can get done by tomorrowā¦things move slowly here. We are trying to get a train out of here to Delhi on March 27. Itās an overnight trainā¦9 hours I think. Then weāll stay in a guest house ( I hope) of our friend in Delhi as our home base as we potentially visit Jaipur, Agra and Delhi before flying home on April 3. All of a sudden I seem to have this list of things to do before leaving here and ensuring that our travels go well. I still very much have my yogi mindset so, itāll all be well.
There is a gecko somewhere in this room and I guess heās going to stay there cuz I canāt find him in order to remove him before sleep time. They do a great job eating bugs so I hope heās busy. (and near Scottās bed ; )
Seemed like the hottest day yet here today. Couldnāt tell you what temp that is though. I enjoyed it. Summer here has to be a whole other experience though.
I need to run. Iām looking forward to a quick meditation and a good sleep. Still would like a few more hours than weāre allotted though. Sheesh.
Ahhh. I just made an executive decision for myself and didnāt go to the meditation. Iāve missed very few classes and meditate at other times during the day so I shouldnāt have any guilt but now Iāll have to hear Scottās little name for meā¦Debbie Miss Misses Classā¦.which he finds so hilarious. Thereās so little time alone let alone in the room and I just washed my face and brushed my teeth and changed for bed. And Scott likes the fan on all night at superjet take off speed and this way I get a few moments with it off or at least on a quiet low. Ahhh. Now Iāll write this, meditate in the comfort of my bed and lay down my head. Iāll have gotten more done more quickly which will yield me a few extra minutes of sleep too. All good donāt you think? And I definitely think tomorrow is a shower day. More Ahhhh. Goodnight. Hope you have one to whoever you are reading this. Xoxo
March 23, 2007 Hello all. Iām good, really. BUT, hmm, I ended up experiencing so much frustration today. I wonāt go through each and every circumstance which I found myself feeling this cuz who wants to relive such things when one is practicing yoga eh? Plus, Iām working through it and feeling better. Had another diarrhea bout and wondering if it was directly connected to the emotions of the dayā¦any which way, here, everything seems purposeful and an opportunity to focus and work on whatever one is going through and thatās what I do. Besides that, I secured the train tickets for usā¦March 27, overnight train to Delhiā¦couldnāt get first class so itās second class for us. I think this train is nicer than the one we came here on for starters and second class means weāre sharing with two other people vs having our own room in first class. No biggie really but it would have been nice to check out the first class accommodations. I bought ājunkā food in town today and ate some and yuckā¦.I bought it with the intention of having snack food for the train trip but I decided to dig into it andā¦really, I could so do without that, and itās not what I really wanted anyway, but choices are pretty slim so. And btw, my tummy upset was prior to that.
Iām in our room with three candles lit and listening to a Roy Davis doing a chant playing it off the laptop. Theyāre not really intended to listen to, theyāre intended to chant along with but Iām finding it soothing. Iāll meditate when Iām done with this writingā¦.gee, these blogs have started to sound a lot alike huh? I had a bottle of cold carbonated water today and I bought a piece of luggage since one of mine is falling apart and for various reasons, I needed a larger bag. Iām glad I got those things doneā¦.the club soda purchase was really so I could have a small water bottle for our traveling.
Iām trying to get all my little responsibilities (I know, seems weird, but amazingly I have a list of things to do and it takes so very long to get anything done here) sooner so that I can really relax and focus on meditation and relaxation and quiet for my last days here. I still havenāt met with Guruji for my second time. He said maybe tonightā¦.it will happen in itās own time. Itās weird how in some ways, this focus on yoga can seem to make me more sensitive rather than more even-minded sometimesā¦.a phase.
It feels like itās getting exponentially hotter here each day. Weāre heading out at the perfect time though our last days may be pretty hot in Delhi and this ācovering upā for women here doesnāt exactly help things. Iām in shorts now but only because Iām in our room. Though, I donāt have light airy Indian cotton clothes which would help matters, essentially, if you lived here, youād adjust many things to make the best of the culture and climate.
The luggage bag I bought was about $30 USā¦..cheaper in other towns we were in but I didnāt have much of a chance to shop. I expect prices to be higher in Delhi. Varanasi was the place to shop but we didnāt have the opportunity. Iām not too bothered about that though. I think Iāll get my fill before we leave. I havenāt found shopping around India to be all that enjoyable anywayā¦okayā¦but more of an errand than an entertainment, but for that matter, thatās pretty much how I usually feel about it at home. I think I feel that way here so far because if you see 5 vendors, it feels like youāve seen then all because they seem to all carry the same stuff. Again, I understand Delhi to be a bit different.
Man, Iāve never had so much activity in my digestive tract for 10 years as Iāve had over these past 6 weeksā¦.sheesh.
Guruji has asked that Scott write a testimonial about Kriya Yoga and of course heās taking it very seriously and to my amazement has been working on it for days. Heās well and is ready like I am to bring this time at the ashram to a close and heās even more interested and open to spending or last days sightseeing than heās ever been before. By the way, I have no idea where that gecko went that was in our room last night. I inquired with others about catching it to put it out of the room etc. but true to my assessment, they said itās not wise since theyāre such squishy critters that are easy to damage including pulling off limbs accidently as they try to get away. Earlier today I saw a black and white striped spider on the wall and as I was examing it, it jumped off the wall at least a foot and quite startled me. It was little, but really different looking.
Scottās also been giving his life back home a lot more thought these past couple of daysā¦Iāve just begun this myselfā¦.including what he might like to do/pursue once heās done with his bachelorās degree. Iāll leave his thoughts on this for him to inform you about as it continues to develop.
CJ sent me a video clip of my Callie high on catnip with an audio dub a Sinatra song behind itā¦.it was so neat.
Man, what a different world it is hereā¦.in India, not just the ashramā¦more and more I feel and see the deep deep differences rather than focusing on the similarities of mankind. So very many thoughts about humankind and the globe and global affairs and history and developing societies and developing man and the āmaster playā of it all. Such things have occupied my mind for much of my life so none of it is at all totally new or shocking, just more to the surface of my awareness and firming up any thoughts that in the past I surmised, but now have had confirmed about other cultures etc.
So, Scott says he likes my shirt today and asked who I swiped it from! As if I wouldnāt own something on my own that he thought was coolā¦well! For those of you that know, itās that tinkerbell shirt that I did originally think of buying for Jess but I bought for myself in a rare moment of sheer desire of something whimsical. Mostly Iāve worn it to sleep but it made it out in public today. Fits better now that I lost that extra fatty weight : ) I know, I know, but itās trueā¦.Iāve been bone and fat with a wee bit of muscle and now the ratios have just shifted a bit, to my liking. Iāll be pretty bummed if I revert once back home. But if Iām a good yogi, I shouldnāt experience ābummedā now should I?!
Oh, how nice it is for me to just chat like thisā¦.the biggest thing missing is the response chat from all of you. Iām looking forward to everything back homeā¦.not in a desperate way whatsoever, but just experiencing things anew and enjoying the appreciation which I feel I often felt day to day but know that I will feel/know all over again.
Oyyyy! I just lost my zen. Sitting in the dark by candlelight I couldnāt tell if what I felt on my legs was the laptop cord, orrrrrā¦ā¦yep, some large insectā¦.Iāve gotten up and put the light on but Iāve lost him. At least he didnāt bite me. Iāve been bitten by so many different insects since Iāve been hereā¦Itās one of the biggest things Iām looking forward to not having to deal with at homeā¦which gives me a whole new appreciation for winter which helps keep our insect populations in check among other things. Guruji told me that he would explain/talk to me about how I feel in the cold and how/why I sweat when Iām cold instead of how most people do when theyāre hot. He acted like he totally knew this whole āthingā about me. Hmmm, now where is that ābugāgar? Aahhh, heās flying aroundā¦.awww, like tinkerbell! Poor thing, heās smacking into everything left and right probably trying to get out of here.
Poor Scott has to put up with my comments about him on these blogs, but hey, he doesnāt want to blog and itās kind of my service to his friends and family who want to hear from him (aaaaaaaaaalllllllrighty thenā¦.THEREās the gecko, this is too funnyā¦.itās an Indian reptile/insect zoo in here) maybe the gecko will get the flying bug. Oh man, this gecko is so huge and heās eyeing Scottās open luggage. I was going to say about Scott that heās so not good at returning dishware to theyāre proper kitchensā¦.when he brings a cup in here it can be here for days on end and then heāll say, oh, was that mine? Ummm, yeees.
Watched some guys play a pick-up game of cricket in an open dirty/grass field area next to our guest house. There are private homes interspersed among the ashram buildings as Guruji doesnāt yet own all the adjacent properties, so until then, itās a mishmash and everyone lives in harmony. Makes for a very interesting environment. The home closest is a open air concrete box about the size of my dining room and the property of theirs is bordered by stacked bricksā¦.bricks which Scott and I accidentally knocked over our first night here as we were kinda lost and walking in the dark and trying to walk over the bricksā¦I think Iām the one who knocked some down. Oh, the memories. We quickly and quietly restacked them as the man of the house nicely and quietly looked on and tried to direct us to the ashram. Scott would not make eye contact as he thought it best to just fix it and move on not knowing what this manās response would be at that time.
Bug updateā¦..both the gecko and flying guy are now out of my sight again. At another time in my life Iād have had to find them before I could sleepā¦.nowā¦.no sweat. Growth I tell you! Or just exhausted from the battle! Just kiddingā¦itās all good.
I just took a sip of cooled tea and thought Iād inform you that the procedure I have is to check the tea for insects that may have landed in there while I wasnāt looking. All these little daily things that are different here that I havenāt mentioned per se til now.
Scott says he has a new appreciation for hygieneā¦.heāll have to explain. Heās now borrowing my Tomās of Maine toothpaste and thinks itās so awesome.
It's now just past midnight and i'm in the meditation hall.....really enjoyed the meditation...something about me and the nighttime. I had a hunch that I could get a connection here tonight so I brought the laptop.
Long day and such a mix....grog out of bed....feeling great after morning meditation....then diarrhea...then deep deep tiredness....some annoyances....feeling better....good meditation....ate more than usual for dinner.....amanda played a joke and hid my shoes....a bit of tension with scott and me, i think he feels i was picking on him, all's fine now.....then a nice shower and grooming time and then the late med and now some typing and I'm ready for bed and feeling better than usual....still have these grumblings in my gut and these squeeters....i just haven't gotten to loving them like a good yogi should.
good night to you all.
unimportant to you....but it seems i remembered incorrectly....i can check more than two bags...so i should be more than fine coming home with all my luggage.
Think I'm going to the market with Bob tomorrow to see if Taj can sew my torn piece of luggage.