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It has been almost two years since I volunteered with CISV for their International People's Project in Thailand.

It was my first time in South East Asia and for what I knew, we were going to work with the affected villages in the areas most affected from the 2004 tsunami. The goal of the program was to reach the children of the community and work with them through play, games, music and art.

Now, 2 years later, after losing all my emails and blogs, I decide to document a little bit of this journey of self-discovery and understanding.

I left Santa Barbara in December with nothing to loose. My lease was up, had a broken heart, graduated from college, and had no idea of what I was doing with myself. This project crossed my path almost 10 months before all started crumbling down and by the time I was supposed to leave, I was not even sure if it was a good thing.

Ban Nai Bo Dan School
Hell, the only cash I had was from my rent deposit! No job, no home, no boy and over the daily mindless routine and suburbian american mentality I decided to truck it on. I hoped in the plane.

I've been involved with CISV since I was 16, and ever since I moved to California, I've been active in the non profit/volunteer world. This time, I was going abroad to work. and to Thailand for 2 months. Oh boy.

I cannot describe my feelings at the time but just the memories that come up in my head as I type this.

Born and raised in São Paulo, Brazil, I've dealt with poverty, chaos, fear, and the most scariest places and people you dont want to ever deal in your life again. I've been robbed, my friends have been kidnapped, I constantly rolled my window on the red stop lights.

Ban Nai Bo Dan School
Nothing had prepared me for what I was about to experince. Until then, I felt like Iwas pretty numb to the outside world. It was as if you become blinded to the not so good things surrounding you, more like having no reaction or no emotion.

 Summarizing things (as you can see I can go on and on...):

Here I was was, volunteering and living with these families that have lost everything. Families were gone, sisters were missing, homes were destroyed. All that time speaking and working with these children and community members I never broke down, until...

on the aniversary of the tsunami in Kao Lak, there was a ceremony. Pictures were hanged everywhere, families from abroad and distant villages united by a dragged boat miles inland.

Kao lak Memorial Service
it was there, after days wrorking with all these people that it got to me. It was not seeing everyone sad but the smiles in their face that made me cry.

I teared up from their losses as i walked through a labirinth of broken hearts and old memories of loved ones. The interesting thing was: here you have all these families that lost EVERYTHING, and here they stand with a smile on their face and the most giving heart of all. These people will share and give you everything they have. it seemed that those that have less are always wanting to give more.

I was embraced by this culture, by the thai people. Learning how life goes on, how little bumps on the road become meaningless in the grander scheme. Everyone was always smiling. at me. Everyone wanted to share something.

I am not sure if I made sense at all with this writing. It was in Thailand that I discover one of the true meanings of life. It is not about finding yourself but allowing others lives to reach yours.

Travelling puts you in your uncomfortable that is comfortable.

It has always been a remedy to wake me up and put me into place. it is sad though, that sometimes it takes one to travel in order to understand.

 

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washed up boat
washed up boat
Ban Nai Bo Dan School
Ban Nai Bo Dan School
Ban Nai Bo Dan School
Ban Nai Bo Dan School
Kao lak Memorial Service
Kao lak Memorial Service
Morken Village
Morken Village
Morken Village
Morken Village
Memorial Pictures at Morken Village
Memorial Pictures at Morken Village
Chairs for sal at the market. Deta…
Chairs for sal at the market. Det…
Ban Nai Bo Dan House
Ban Nai Bo Dan House
Cute kids
Cute kids
Peace
Peace
getting ready to work
getting ready to work
muslim ladies
muslim ladies
Going on a day hike with the child…
Going on a day hike with the chil…
Rubber Plantations
Rubber Plantations
Kids at Ba Nai Bo Dan School. Im i…
Kids at Ba Nai Bo Dan School. Im …
So cute! ban Nai Bo Dan School
So cute! ban Nai Bo Dan School
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