Loneliness, go away!!
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Drove back from Singburi to Ayutthaya to Wassanawate retirement community and senior housing. Really quiet. I smell the loneliness since first stepped there.
We looked for the office center then an old woman came. She was so excited when she saw us and eagerly asked us what bring us here? Where we came from? She said, so glad that we had a thought about old people here.
She was one of elderly people who was abandoned by their family. Even though she might have someone to talk to but i saw something that she can't hide. How do 208 lonely lives with 208 loneliness feel?
Wassanawate retirement community and senior housing take care of people who are over 60 years old.
Bringing up the parents, In thai culture when a son/daughter grows up and has a job, they would give some money back to their parents per month or year depends, to repay an obligation to their parents. Even though the parents don't want to take it but they would give it to them anyway. (As me, i did not stay with my parents anymore but since i work, i give back what they gave.
But some people don't think the same. Ok they don't do, i don't mind. But i do mind when i see people who're abandoned. Parents took care of them, gave them money, bought them food until they grew up, have a good job. But when their life is going well, they abandon someone who loves them the most and let them stay alone outside. I wonder how they feel if their son/daughter do it back to them when they're getting older.
The officer told us to go to the cafeteria . They would call everyone to be there and let we gave money there. We were confused by the way they did. Because i thought, i could go to each house and talk to them face to face.
Hundred of old people were already there, sat on the table they set. I don't like this rule. We should do as daughter gives money to mother not like someone gives them a prize. But how could we do? The officer insisted so ... ok rule!
We went directly to each person and gave money to them. Well, what a shame. As a culture respect, we do respect the older person by say "Sawaddee ka" and put the hands together around a chin. But this time, before i did, they hurry did it first when i gave money. Well, i don't like it. They're older than me for more than 30 years old, they shouldn't have to do it.
After done, the officer would take us back to the office center but well, could you please let me talk to them first?!! Everybody was really interested in a conversation i started. I asked one question but everyone wanted to answer as 'talk to me, talk to me, i don't have anyone come to visit for a long time, talk to me'. Was so sad that i can't seperate myself into 208 pieces to talk to everyone but i think i did the best that i could do.
Only 2 hours with them but got some lessons. While we're talking, it's really hurt inside. Their stories are so ..... hmmm! Of course, i did not understand what they met for whole life but well. Then one of them said "Don't feel bad because you did not do anything wrong.
Well, as they know that now i was lonely!!!!
But that's the way they do to make life better. They're not sad about their lives. They live with the present. And now they're here and they know who they live for. Yes, themselves. Homeless? Nope, they have home but they just can't go back home. How they feel reminded me of all of my past love that was so hard to pass through the sadness but now it became just a tiny thing if compared with how much they lose their love of the families.
They said Thank you to us all for the visiting. Yesterday we were just strangers but now seemed to be friends. Also prayed and blessed for us and sang a thank you song!! Stunning moment had happened now!
Well, that's the way of life.
Then we went to the temple. Today is the Buddhist lent day. We should go to the temple. So we went to Prasrisanpet temple. Many people were there to do a rite of buddhist which calls "Vientien" (= starts from the right and go round the Buddhist monastery for three times with a candle and flowers in hands after sunset 6pm.) It's a sign of paying respect to the religion. That day was so crowded, we had no space to stand so we went outside to an old temple. Stupas, pagodas, temples were ruined by Thai-Mianmar war from the last thousand years. Now it's turn to be a museum. 10 baht for Thai, 30 baht for foreigners.
Not many people inside coz most of them were at the new temple.
It was alomost 6pm. Nice air. Sometimes at night they had a light show. Hmmm, how many people die here? I can't stop thinking while i was walking there. Hmmm, what would it be if i came here at night? Ghostttttt???? :O
We went out before it's closed. Time to go back to Bangkok! We stopped at the market to buy the favorite dessert in Ayutthaya, Roti-Saimai (Roti and candy frost but different kind).
When we reached there, it's closed!!! The opposite side of the hospital has more than 30 roti saimai shops but only Abedine is closed.!! Best seller! So we had to look for some other roti that we thought it would be taste good too. The taste depends on how they make roti flour, how to sift, how to hit the flour onto the pan. Well, the one we chose wasn't taste good but not that bad.
I bought two, for an old guard at my apartment and another one for my collegues. Waiting for them for almost 1 hour cos they had a small pan which can make only 2 rotis at a time.
Before back home, we had a dinner at Somtam Nua around the suburb of bangkok. Best Somtam restaurant. (Somtam is papaya salad, a littel bit spicy, yummmm!!) Good food, nice place. Shame, that my camera was out of battery.
This short trip have made my stomache full also my mind. We all took the happiness back home. Hope you got them too! :)
See ya next trip! :D