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20/11/92

 

Dear Gayle:

            Dearest G.

                        in Costa Rica

 

yer missive arriving this watershed week.  me tossing my academic career down the institutional john.  programme meeting from hell--shit stuff--me inserting many appendages in my mouth at once--enmity incurred from various manipulative faculty  say la v.  no?

 

yer exodus a model & inspiration:  me  realizing academe is the death of writing.  Figure on playing this year for economic spurs--then, bam.  this boyz history.  o g.  do this sound familiar?  hunh?

 

Gayle i love books,  love reading,  but what's up with my life's got nothin to do w/ this.

 

            and yer hand searching out

            the pads of my fingers. yer

            lips yer smiles & tongue.

 

Spanish?  hablos?  a good lingo?

 

& are you in-spired by the heat?  me wishing to be there in the inspiration.

the blue lines on this page not yer page a banner furrows  leader lines  heads of them  will you get this there?

 

o got no here (yes) at all

 

this negative i have of you on the floor

in a white robe in a yellow light

w/ smoke rings dancing in my

memory

 

            memory

my friend Auggie once wrote:

"memory stinks like a good marinara sauce"

O yes it does

            a crazy wor(l)d

                         is this

 

and Gayle  knowing you t(here)

t(h)inking bout the same fiction

is both a bloodscore and a blowfish

 

pois-on-us  sushi  aphrodisiac

&       heart   symphony

         sim  phony

         simp   honey

 

no word game could explain this thing i want to chune on you

 

&  how about the night-times (t)here?  places to lay a body down and see a cosmology?

 

the stars died in toronto the day barrie nichol died--the lights in the saints' eyes snuffed

                      cause cloud-hidden cried

       noone to write her (here) no more

 

this is my martyourology.  an old st. i never new explained with you --looking to cloud-town & seeing no thing on a cold autumnal t.o. eve.

 

outside hart house i had this revelation

holding you close a dervish

 

i'm in hart house now  this is my here (de-stabil-ized) & collective memory

--the music for us to dance to cascading out the old brick & ghosting

 

there is a mythology to this place i won't efface or face now

 

christ i'm  babbling, sorry.

 

i miss your/our s(k)in & i thank you for that:

 

take me no wrong way  how a cryptogram might take you

 

reed tween the line

             s

 

love Micaleh

 

                                                                           ~~~

 

 

We are so often drawn to love stories. It's second nature. And I've even got the element of sleaze for mine, I suppose: as I was writing Michael, I was planning to meet Jeff.  Sure, things were complicated, but I figured "Hey, they knew about each other, so everything's above board right?"  With each word, each story told,  another is somehow (impossibly) both concurrent and excluded.

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